There are days when you think that everything will be fine. There are days when you think that things will be great. And then there are days when you know, just know that life has dealt you with a loaded deck but for the life of you, you cannot fathom what, how, when and where. It was just such a hand that I felt I was holding when she said it. Loyana. NOT my benefactor?
The obvious question under such circumstances should have been, if not her then who? But no. Trust me to come up with an entirely tangential approach.
"Do you do this regularly so that you can afford your designer labels or is it just a one off thing?"
Anger. Red hot. Lava hot. Bubbling out of me, seething over my insides with enough venom to destroy even her at that point.
Hatred. Intense, sharp and finely honed, my secret weapon that I kept inside, never letting anyone know that it lived and breathed within me.
I had perfected the art when my step mother began to beat me. When I would scream for mercy and she'd keep hitting me. Using any and everything that she could think of. Slippers, tongs, tempering ladles - whatever came to hand. It came in handy that day.
"No,"she said,"This is a special exception I'm making. For someone I owe a lot to. And you needed the money. So I figured I could help two friends in one go. I am a very helpful person darling. And I shall help you even further. I am going to introduce you to Raoul."
And with that she picked up her cell phone and summoned Raoul.
The obvious question under such circumstances should have been, if not her then who? But no. Trust me to come up with an entirely tangential approach.
"Do you do this regularly so that you can afford your designer labels or is it just a one off thing?"
Anger. Red hot. Lava hot. Bubbling out of me, seething over my insides with enough venom to destroy even her at that point.
Hatred. Intense, sharp and finely honed, my secret weapon that I kept inside, never letting anyone know that it lived and breathed within me.
I had perfected the art when my step mother began to beat me. When I would scream for mercy and she'd keep hitting me. Using any and everything that she could think of. Slippers, tongs, tempering ladles - whatever came to hand. It came in handy that day.
"No,"she said,"This is a special exception I'm making. For someone I owe a lot to. And you needed the money. So I figured I could help two friends in one go. I am a very helpful person darling. And I shall help you even further. I am going to introduce you to Raoul."
And with that she picked up her cell phone and summoned Raoul.
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